questions

Probably the best place to start in my ’self online therapy’ (say that 5 times fast) is to ask myself, “What would make you/me happy?”…or should I ask, “What makes me unhappy?”…

Which would allow me to sift out what is truly causing my unhappiness?

How about this?

How about I go out on a limb and ask anyone who may stumble across this blog to act as a co-therapist in this?

Why not? What is there to lose in my journey of self discovery?

Afterall, there are good people online, people who aren’t quick to send venomous and snide or judgmental responses – people that may be able to show me things that I am missing, or teach me things that might be helpful.

So that will be step one….I ask you oh kinder and more intelligent Netizens, when someone is miserable where should they start in righting their lives?
what questions should be asked first/ or what actions considered first?

Yes yes…I know…but we don’t know a thing about you, so how can we offer any ideas or help?

Then let’s start there…ask away…….

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rethinking

I originally just wanted to have a blog to……?….well I didn’t have a real purpose.

But now after all this time, the purpose for this blog anyways is ultra clear to me.

I need to vent, or release or use it to be cathartic – yes THAT is the word I was seeking.

So even though this won’t end up being some super popular or even read many times blog, due to circumstances in my life dictate I need to utilize this free space as a sort of pseudo therapist to help discover all that may be hurting me inside and thereby, maybe, just maybe be able to find ways to start healing.

seeking wisdom

Maybe someone with a good mind and not looking to be flipitant or a smartass could offer some advice/wisdom on a way to just meet people online.

NOT by going the rather annoying Facebook, or Myspace or such routes.

Nothing against such, but I myself am looking for just someone(s) to communicate with (chat, email – whatever).

Any ideas? Suggestions?

questions by me

Why……
Why is life so hard and love so tough?
Why is quitting so easy and fighting so rough?
Why is compromise simple and individuality a pain?
Why do some worship the sun and shun the rain?
Why do some forget me and put on a fake smile?
Why has conformity replaced individual style?
Why do some love only what they can hold?
Why are the treasures in life seen only as gold?
Why have neighbors become but strangers?
Why do we first distrust and only see dangers?
Why is compassion seen only as weakness?
Why is the news only full of bleakness?
Why does love end and leave you so blue.
The answer is simple – it never was true.

When……
When is enough, never enough?
When does this journey stopping being so rough?
When is a friend truer than truer?
The answer is easy. It is within you.

What……
What can I do to make this world better?
What is so wrong with an old-fashioned letter?
What is the lure of what is superficial?
What is so wrong with being happy and wistful?
What happened to my life?
What happened to not knowing strife?
What wrong with being silly and writing like Dr. Seuss?
What happened to real free thinking and cutting loose?
What makes a friend leave and go away.
They never were a true friend, as sad as it is to say.

Where……
Where can my heart go when no one shows me any love?
I have no answer to give thereof.
I instead cry softly and let no one hear me weep.
Wrapped in loneliness, praying I may find sleep.
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Now I know I have no future as a writer based on the above piece.

But I had to post it as it is like a piece of me that maybe by sharing, well who knows.

can we be friends?

Ah isn’t that a warm and fuzzy thought?

You smash my heart into a million bits and you ask, “can we still be friends”….I liked the ’still’ term interjected in there.

Still? Why of course, I mean – the whole cheating on me and then dumping me well…that is just how it goes, and I know I certainly couldn’t call someone a friend unless I knew I could royally screw them over.